Thursday, May 27, 2010
Urgh. I've been feeling awful lately. Idle brain agitates me. I just feel useless, unproductive, like a machine that is going to be discarded very soon. Aaaarrrggghhh.
I wish I have something to do. Like two yrs ago, I had my french course. It helps me get through the day. I wasn't exactly productive, but at least I'm learning something new and get my brain works for half of the day.
As for now, I just feel helplessly unproductive. I suppose I could read my thesis's material that my lectures kindly gave to me. Hey, that's an idea! I feel better already. Yea. I should totally print the material tomorrow and find that book he told me to read. Phew. Finally, something to do.
Oh,wait. My friends are coming from out of town tomorrow. Can't wait. The hours of torture in traffic jam.
That's the other thing. I've been bitter lately. The amount of candies I've put in my mouth done no help. I guess that's the side effect of being unproductive. I'm not doing anything. So I have nothing to put my passion and excitement to. Like when you hv this project, you sweat bloods and a bucket of tears, and when it's executed you're sort of feel that excitement, that satisfaction. I have none of that now. So I feel no passion nor excitement.
That's the word.
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Thursday, May 13, 2010
Monday, May 10, 2010
I've been preoccupied with school and divo and . . . you know, stuff. I need to stop making excuses. Okay, I admit it, I just don't have any desire to blog. But now I'm doing it out of guilt.
So Divo, our chihuahua puppy just got some sort of immunization injection last friday. He was so terrified I had to be brave. I never heard her crying like that. Poor Divo! But it's for his own good.
I've also been preoccupied with my thesis topic. It's due 25th august. I still have time, a lot actually, but I just can't get it out of my mind. Like I need to do this one thing so I can really like genuinely enjoy my 2 months holiday from june to july. I'm that kind of person who wants to just get things done immediately and get it out of my way, you know. I'm lame at procrastination.
So I've been browsing the internet and consulting with my not-that-much-of-a-help-but-maybe-help-a-little lecture. And I still can't find the right topic.
I don't want it to be difficult but at the same time I don't want it to be too simple cause I want to prove that I actually have learned something for the past 3 years of my university life.
Oh well. It's in progress. Mr. Right Topic, please knock on my brain door!
Speaking of university. I'm in the middle of the final exam week. And you probably wondering why I have time to blog instead of studying. Well, for one reason, 5 out of 6 subjects are open book exams. So I don't really study. I just sort of skimming and voila I can do the exam. I know. Sweet right?
And it's probably as sweet as my new blog. You probably think I'm crazy for making another blog. I'm terrible at updating THIS blog and yet I made ANOTHER blog.
But it's entirely different cause this blog is a fashion blog. I know, Finally!
This way I can retract my commitment to include anything fashion in this blog.
Don't worry, I will still posting 5 top something.
I happen to like depressing songs. Everytime I play a sad and gloomy melody, my sister would be like 'what kind of song is that? It's so depressing'. But I ♥ depressing songs. It makes me depressed. I like feeling gloomy and dark and all emo cause then I feel like I can feel what others can't through songs. So here we go
Five Top Depressing Songs
1. Flightless Bird, American Mouth by Iron and Wine
Oh God. I cried when I first heard this at Twilight movie. At home, I immediately browse for the title then download it. You can't feel not depressed if you listened to the lyric and the extremely sad melody. This definitely my go to song when I need to feel depressed.
Though I don't really get the message. Some say it's a little porn. I don't know. All I care this song breaks my ♡ everytime I listen to it.
2. Possibility by Lykke Li
This is also from Twilight series, New Moon. It's the song when Bella just got dumped by that sparkly vampire Edward. Seriously. THIS is the right song to express all that devastation that she feels. The intensified feeling of normal break-up. Oh Bella darling, if only I were you.
3. Almost Lover by A Fine Frenzy
To all my ex flings, this is the song for you. I'm definitely relate to the lyric. And the beautiful melody just makes it more perfect to reminiscing those fun times, flings. And also the heartbreak that came after. Oh yeah, I don't forget how you break my ♡, mister.
4. Already Gone by Kelly Clarkson
This is the song for you who just got out of a relationship because of a sad reason where nobody is to blame but the reason to end the relationship is undeniable. "I want you to know that it doesn't matter where we take this road someone's gotta go. And I want you to know that you couldn't have loved me better... Love you enough to let you go"
5. Hotel California by Eagles
This song just make me sad. It's about human traffic, if you can't understand the metaphorical lyric. I can't imagine being send and used like an object. That's what makes this song so depressing. It's about a real problem and not just some shabby ♥ conflict.
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