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Another dancing videos! Hmm.. Shoeless dancing is so much easier to do.. Somehow..
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Not Sure How To Feel

So I'm finally graduating from my university life. It's a big relief I must say. Although I'm not as happy as I thought I would be. Or to be correct, should be. My thesis defense was not as formidable as I thought. I just hope I would passed yudisium and that would mean I officially would be leaving  the fun part of life. Yup. I would need to get a job.

It's scary. It's terrifying. I'm scared. I'm confused. I'm not sure. I'm indecisive. I'm out of words.

Frankly, I'm kinda depressed right now. I do want to get a job. But not in accounting area (which my major is right now). So you probably wondering why did I ever major in accounting then?

Well, at first, I was going to major in English Literature. However, my dad didn't approve. So I thought, accounting doesn't sound so bad. You just have to deal with numbers. Numbers are kind. They always the same everywhere. And they don't take sides. They will summed up exactly the same for everyone. Therefore, here I am.

I always thought one day I would grow into it, you know. You hang around with someone long enough, they just grow on you. Alas, that is not the case. It's not that I hate accounting. I just don't like them. I put up with them. But I don't want to spend time with them all the time.

I'm a little sad as well. I've been crying a little more than usual lately. I'm parting with my friends. I only have 4 days left before I go back to my hometown. Ofcourse, it's not forever. We would still meet if we want to. But just wanting to meet wouldn't exactly unite us back together. And I'm terrible with technology. Sure, we all have all means of communications right now. But I'm not a fan of texting or BBM-ing. They are fun for two or three hours. But I need to see the person. I can't tell about my day throughout texts or BBM. It's like I'm scared they would pretend to care. It's easy to be someone else throughout the amazing innovation of communication technology.

And being unproductive doesn't help. I feel really helpless and just . . . . dull. *heavysigh*

I do thankful though that my mom and dad don't push me to get a job. They do mention it a couple time. But they're not rushing it. I guess they can tell that I'm scared.

I also pray more than I normally does. It does help a little. I just wish I can really talk to God. Not in my mind or in my dream. But like. . . . really really talk eye to eye. Person to person. Where I can touch Him. And He can give me a clear directive order about where I'm supposed to go from now.

So that was kinda forlorn and gloomy. I do, however, with my inifinite free time, able to learn more dance routines!

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A Thankful Note

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! A little late but . . . Better late than never!

What are you most thankful for, my sweet fellow bloggers?

I'm thankful for my Father in heaven who never let go of His hands over little ole me. I'm thankful for my mom, whom no matter I forget to pick up the phone, relentlessly, everyday, never forget to call and ask have I eat my lunch or not. I'm thankful for a father who let me make my own mistakes but never let me fall to my knees to correct that mistakes. I'm thankful for a big sister who never get tired of facing my silly and crazy self EVERY SINGLE DAY. I'm thankful for friends who has seen the real me but never give up on me.

I'm thankful for blogging world, which let me to pour my ♡ out. I'm thankful for friends which I get from this virtual world. It's amazing to have someone with similar interests!

Lastly, I'm thankful for every frustrating and depressing moments and every mistakes I have in my life. They made who I am today. I would never have it any other way.

Happy Thanksgiving!

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Money Is A Bitch Who's Sleeping With One Eye Open

In a way that is true. I mean, if you're a stock player, that is like the ultimate truth, like the fact earth revolves around the sun truth. You'll never know what would happen to your bitch cause it's all a speculation (just picture your high-class call girl. Will she still be there in the morning? You'll never know). Yes, people, Wall Street : Money Never Sleeps is an educational movie and perhaps slightly dizzying with its confusing financial tricks. I am lucky that I'm a business school student so I sort of understand how the games are played in stock markets. Unfortunately, I'm not that good of a student in my financial classes therefore I am not capable to explain those smart and cunning strategy in a stock market.

However, I will try my very best effort to give a review for this amazing movie. (A lot of people said the first movie is waaayyyy better. But I haven't watch it and I'm easily impressed!)


So there's this scrawny young ambitious man named Jacob Moore (LaBeouf) who is in a serious need of a hair gel (IMHO) and a chill pill. He's a typical broker you know : thin, agile, and a sweet talker. Jake is engaged (well, he didn't propose until in the middle of the movie) to Winnie Gekko. Winnie (Mulligan), who does not look like a pooh bear at all, is the daughter of Gordon Gekko (Douglas), the slimy and most malicious broker of all who just got out of jail. The story set in, duh, yours truly and only New York City year 2008. We'll get back to these two soon.


Little Jake was once just a caddy for a high ranked broker, Lewis 'Lou' Zabel (Langella) and eventually 'adopted' as his pet. 12 year old Jake impressed Lou in a great way with his in depth knowledge about financial and business thingy so he gave him a scolarship in a business school and recruited him afterward.
Now, obviously, Jake developed some sort of attachment and took Lou as a fatherly figure (he does look very fatherly). They both worked for a bank (I forgot the name) called KL. Lou was one of the important people with lots of shares in KL. In a one fine day, KL stock prices declined rapidly, like a bungee-jumping- -free-fall, fall. Hence, Lou was forced to sold his portion of shares with an excruciatingly low price, (from $79 to $3)or he would face a great amount of debt. The buyer, Bretton James (Brolin), was one of the people from Churchill & Swartz bank, and he was so mean! Seriously, I felt so bad for Lou and was really angry with heartless Bretton. As expected, Lou committed suicide due to devastation. I know, I screamed deep down in my heart too. Lou looks like such a nice granddad that you'd want to share your cookies with!


Jake was shocked and in denial by the death of his mentor so he proposed to Winnie (I don't get that either, let's just play along, okay?) whom strangely said yes. Girl, your boyfriend is a mess, how did you not see that? Getting married is not going to help anybody. But hey, weddings are not expensive right?


So here we are back to Winnie Gekko. Yes, Gekko, it is one of the most feared name by stock traders in Wall Street. Back in 1980s, there was a scandal which caused Gekko a fortune and a lot of other people a huge loss. Gekko was sent to prison and now he's out and as ready as a hungry shark to strike back, although you can't tell in the first few minutes. Winnie is an estranged daughter who shut herself out from his father due to the death of her older brother.


Gekko was approached by Jake, whom at first, had a pure and noble intention. To reconcile Winnie and his daddy.  As the time goes, his intention become not so pure anymore. He was looking for revenge (yes, stock prices do not just go into a free fall without anything causing it) and needed help. Gekko knows all about Wall Street and he sort of gave him advices. 'Trading' as they exchanging advices with Winnie's reconciliation. Oh, poor poor Winnie.


Anyway, I am not going to give any spoilers here (as I am too tired and sort of drained of ideas). For me, this move is a genius. I want to go straight to Jakarta Stock Exchange with my best crisp white shirt and start selling and buying stocks. Of course, there are parts that forced my business brain to work real hard, but that's what makes it even better! I love movies that is making me think (not guessing) in a very logical and reasonable way. The story line was in a perfect pace. Not too slow, but not too fast either (we need time to digest all those financial terms!). The cast were stellar (come on, Michael Douglas, Shia LeBeuof, Carrey Mulligan, they all are promising!). But here's five highlights that I love about this movie :


1. Carey Mulligan pixie hair cuts. I know. I told you before. I'm a strange girl with an even more peculiar priority. Carey Mulligan is blessed with a chameleon face. She can be an innocent school girl with nice long hair and bangs or an independent liberalism young woman with a short pixie hair. She looks as adorable as always. And her chic effortless style was a nice break between all those three-piece suits.
2. Bubbles were here and there. This term 'bubbles' is used rather often. I believe it describes a situation where a stock price that was once increasing real strong suddenly burst and falling. So there were bubbles blown by little children at the beginning of the movie, in the middle, and at the ending. Such a neat way to remind viewers about this term! And I happen love bubbles!
3. The Goya 'Saturn Devouring His Son' painting. I think Goya was a brilliant artist and I don't think anyone would opposed to that. However, his arts never failled to disturbed me. With his dark paintings and all. It's always so... scary and so... depressing. But it reflects some part of this movie perfectly (can't say more, it'd be a spoiler) as it is a dog eat dog world out there. Who could stop a father taking benefit from his own daughter? (oops!)
4. Despite the title, I was really pleased that it's not all about business. The movie also emphasized on relationships. As a girl, I was naturally drawn to Winnie-Jake-Gekko relationships. It was nice to have a break from difficult financial conversation.
5. A happy ending! I was really apprehensive about the ending. I convinced myself that the movie would end up with some hanging ends. Turned out, Winnie took care her daddy issue and she had a baby and all and they lived happily ever after! Yeaayyy


Oh God, I'm so tired. Until next movie!

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I Love The People, I Love The Food, I Love The Ambience, and I Love Life

Life has been pretty wonderful lately (thesis problem aside). I'm currently loving life. Sure, my dad's waterboom is having security problem which I confess, worries me a little bit, but other than that, my life has been quite amazing. Thank you, God.

Last friday, I held a little gather up at Ita Suki restaurant as a birthday dinner thingy. But to be honest, I just wanted to gather all of my friends together and just have a really good time. And we did!

For the longest time I tried to make sure everybody's schedule is not conflicting so everybody could come. Unfortunetaly, only 18 of them came. I invited 20 people, but to be honest, at 90% attendance, that night was pretty magical.

There were two cameras. And I strangely look at the front one, but the other didn't. Then when I look at side one, the others look at the front one. It's so silly!

I LOVE MY SISTER TO DEATH.

Yes, I have a sligthly sister complex. But she's been there the whole time. How can I not love her? Of course, she loves me back just as much, you silly!

My closest classmates. We've been through a lot (all those late night team work, assignments, presentation, projects after projects). Do not blame our little way to pretend to be crazy in order to not actually be crazy.

A more appropriate picture of us. 

Dearest, VK and RT, I hope we'll stay in touch even after we graduate! (yeah, like my thesis is not killing me right now)

With our husband (yes, he's the husband of all three of us. Just kidding, he's a really good friend of us and sometimes we treat him like a husband ;p )

Aaanndd.. It's a wrap!

<3

Birthday Girl

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Thesis Is Clouding My Mind

Thesis progress has been super slow, like, snail walking slow, it is so irritating and it's making me edgy some times.
I feel really bad about always complaining to my friends on how my thesis guidance counselor is not really guiding me (she really is not). I suppose I should just take the positive note. It taught me to be independent and assertive. And I also taught me to seek another opinion.
I've been having problems with my thesis calculation and there were times I almost burst into tears. But I managed to succumb the hysteria and instead seek God for some consolation.
And there are times where I just turn off my laptop and turn to my friends for some laugh. I can always count on them to stop me from going downhill.
Thank you, God. Thank you, friends. I ♥ you.

Thesis topic aside, I'm newly 21! Yes I know, it's hardly exciting.
I always thought I'd be much more mature than I am right now. I always thought, by the time I'm 21, I'll have my own cool job and cool apartment. But instead, I'm still in my last year of university.
Of course I am grateful. I would never ask for anything differently. I ♥ my life right now. And apart from the fact I'm still hanging to my family for financial support, I actually feel mature.
My depression hole is always there, ready to pull me in, but prayers and sane thoughts has been keeping me away from that diabolical circle. See, I think I'm doing quite swell!
My mood has been quite steady. No more mood swings a per usual. And yes, I haven't quite managed my shopping habits but I have a credit card now and I hardly use them. So I supposed my retail therapy is still under control.
Fine, I confess, I did bought some quite expensive bag. But in my defense, I have been lusting for this Philip Lim bag for about 3 months. (I bought it as a birthday present for my self)

Oh well. I guess I shouldn't have told you about that.

On a lighter note, people have been very vocal about my deleted facebook account.
They were all confused as I gave a very vague reason on why I deleted it.
The true reason will still remain for myself and myself only. As I believe people would never understand my logic. Not that I'm saying I'm smarter, it's just that I have a rather queer mind than the normal standard.

I shall remain dazed and confused about my thesis but refuse to give up as I believe Jesus and holy spirit would never cease to give me strength.
Until next post!
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